We were so blessed to even get pregnant so I never complained or took advantage. I enjoyed the time I had with Joy. I miss feeling her kick and dance. And oh man was she beautiful. I will be posting pictures of her on here soon. But for now I have a picture of her footprint on my sister's necklace.
We are seeing a fertility dr again so we can get pregnant before we move to Ohio. I saw him on April 4th and he did an ultrasound on me to see what the next step would be. He found some tissue still in my uterus (we saw it too!) so he put me on birth control for 2 months so I can flush it out. When my second period starts I call to schedule a hysteroscopy. I can also start my ovulation medicine then too and hopefully do another IUI. We are excited we can move forward in the right direction.
I was told I won't lose another baby that way again. I will be watched very carefully my next pregnancy for my sanity. I would go to the dr everyday if I could. Also I was told they will take him or her out right when she or he is ready. If that means a c-section, I am ok with that. If I have to get induced and deliver, bring it on. I did exceptionally well even knowing the outcome.
I hurt everyday bc I don't have her with me, but we can't change what happened. I just have to put all my trust in God.
We also have been blessed with the people around us. Both our families got to come to her Memorial, which her Memorial was so beautiful. Joshua found a song that is now her anthem, called One More Day by Rocket Club. The video on youtube is incredible.
I wish everyone could've met Joy but we all will again one day and that brings me peace. Also knowing that Memaw and everyone that we have loved and lost are up there loving on her helps me so much.
I want to say thank you for all the kind words our friends have sent us, the flowers and plants are beautiful, and the dinners that were provided for us were amazing. We knew we liked it here but now we absolutely love it and our friends here. THANK YOU!!!!
I am pretty sure I have said this before, I am not a good writer. I have so much to say so I am all over the place. I apologize. I am hoping to keep up to date with our journey on here. I won't be very public on Facebook but you will be able to read everything on here. Thanx for reading!
